Friday, October 25, 2013

Baby Steps

This past year I have often thought of this blog as "my poor neglected space".  Now I see it has been a concentration of silently counting my breaths in and out 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 and over again.  Baby steps, is what I need to climb back to my creative self.

While I've been gone I have started and stopped, feasted and fasted, struck out and held close.  I have been sitting in virtual circle and digging deep, excavating nuggets of gold and shards of fractured glass.  I have lost and found hope

meditated on chicken feet

and equally complex natural worlds unto themselves.

I have journeyed

and squirrelled myself away from the world

witnessed miracles

and came fearlessly close to nature.

I asked for one feather 

and received whole birds, and more.

Right now, I am making moon mandalas with Lisa Hofmann over here

while my heart cracks wider and wider and I am called to go deeper and deeper into the excruciatingly lonely practice of forgiveness.


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Roos said...

Rest assured, we are practicing together.
All my love!

thecatalanway said...

Oh I love you!
Inspiring as always my dear

The lonliness of forgiveness work - aha - try humiliation studies - it is very interesting!

lots of love and thanks for being you - I love the images, and your voice is coming through strong and clear

K xxxx

Sherry Smyth said...

I would say that your time away from here, from doing this, has been productive and deeply entrenched in growth and learning. The R man holding a skunk is just one piece of evidence that fear does not hold you back...and your words here today my Frida has such an honest vulnerability to've rather blown my mind. xo

Kim Mailhot said...

I so love hearing your voice here !
Sending you light and love always, even to those lonely places.

The Bodhi Chicklet said...

In the event any of you check back in here (because I am not accustomed to leaving comments for comments) thank you, thank you, thank you, for hanging in there with me and for showing up and sharing. xo

dixiebelle said...

No replies needed but glad to see you back! Forgiveness is key in Life! Holding on to negative feelings only hurts yourself! This has been a lesson that I have been working on daily for years and it becomes easier when you realize that it's like letting someone negative live rent free in your brain! Kick them out =)